I have music in my head

If I could write out the notes to the jeopardy song I would because that is the song I have playing in my head. This next week is a waiting game, and it's just a matter of time before we find out the next steps for our daughters life. It's not easy waiting, especially when there is nothing that you can do to change the future. She is truely in God's hands now. I really dont know how to pray but God, she's in YOUR hands! If they deem her ready, then I pray that she's strong, and she can handle this very serious surgery. If she's not ready then we face the trach. The trach is not the end of the world, but it certainly changes ours. I dont even know how long she would have to deal with the trach/vent, but I know the things we would have to know and learn would be even more. I think overall everything we've learned dealing with Haley has been a lot. We've learned to look for changes in her, signs that there is something different/wrong. I am very nervous and anxious as well to get it over with so we know what we're facing. Jeremy and I have been splitting up the nights at the hospital. I really hate being apart, but there are nights that she doesnt behave and it makes us feel better that one of us are here. The problem with that is we dont get the sleep we really need. So we are sleep deprived while also dealing with stress. I sometimes feel that my writing is so scrambly. So as I leave I go with this..... doo doo doo doo doo doo doo, doo doo doo doo doop, be doobedobedoo. (well ok not exactly the right notes but you get my drift ;) )